You changed my life

Back in the days, I didn't realize that my life would flip over with the blink of an eye. I was experiencing several changes on my job, and a series of financial decisions had been already made. I remember exactly the time when my wife told me that big surprise: You will become a dad. I cannot describe how I felt, but I remember a certain type of shivering of happiness and uncertainty that those words drew into my body. Nobody is prepared for that. I was 28, yet I didn't even feel that I was able to carry a newborn on my arms. I remember when I carried my little nephew, then he instantly cried because he felt unsafe on my arms. That memory came to my mind when I visualized on how it will be like to carry my first baby.

As the days went by, a day like today but eight years ago, my daughter was born. I've never felt that kind of happiness to see that tiny being coming out with that loud crying that suggested that she was healthy and safe. Though all that happiness and joy that my daughter brought to all our family and friends circle, the best was yet to come when we checked out from the hospital, and we were about to head to our home. The sleepless nights were about to start. Those are things that every new parents experience at first, but I remember that even one bloating on her tummy was capable of make our nights that dreadful. Fortunately, we passed over it.

With all the things as a baby and as a toddler lived on, including sicknesses, tantrums, funny occurrences, mischiefs, and so on; my daughter taught me so many valuable life lessons that I would never caught if I weren't be a dad. It's not the same thing observing parenthood than living on it. The things that I never imagined to do before that happened, I undoubtedly did and with bonuses. I developed strength, willpower, maturity and other manners which helped me to raise her. Now I am father of two beautiful daughters, so they are so especial for me, but the things you learned with the first one when practicing newbie parenthood, those things are unforgettable though.

On the picture shown, my daughter Gabriela when she was 1 year and 4 months old. Now she is much bigger, but the same childish face.

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This too shall pass

A few months ago, I was planning how my 2020 will be like, yet I tried to figure out how to get a serious commitment with myself on some unaccomplished goals. I reckon nobody was plotting ahead how our life would change in a glipmse, and it seems those changes will be part of our daily living at least for a couple of years. On my 37 years of living, I've never seen something similar which affects the entire globe that flat. It is the first time I look that people are being subjected to such self awareness. Sometimes it's hard for me to see even children wearing a mask, yet I think it's harder for them to be banned from socializing with other kids when we know this is part of their natural behavior.

On the other hand, this Covid19 novel will lead us to practice a set of new habits that would benefit our way of living. I am sure that people will take cleanliness more seriously than ever before. When have you been instructed on the way you washed your hands? When did you ever clean and sanitized your groceries? During this time, I bet there were so many people that received their first online class or work session. I guess this way of conferencing will remain forever. Whoa.

The saddest part for me is the economic outbreak ahead. So many businesses have not received even a penny during the lockdowns. Things would never be the same for lots of them. I personally had the fortune to be on a technical area which was classified as "essencial", so I haven't stopped working. But so many people had been either furloughed or canceled from their jobs. Nobody has the ability to predict how the economic recovery will be, but I think that as humans we have the great willing to overtake every kind of crises, even though how dreadful the panorama was. On this moments, people show the best of them. Human kindness brings hope to our world.

I hope this too shall pass. It's going to be a new beginning for many people, yet the most important thing is to be alive to relate the havoc of everything what it was.